It's a lie.

I swear I dont need you in my life. NOT at all.

A crush should always be kept as one and not show it out.
There's no such thing as forever and there are several examples proving it to me.

I have no idea why. But then just as I wake up this morning, several flashbacks came to me.

Flashbacks of several sweet memories.
Flashbacks of stuff that I am suppose to just shut up and stop them from flashing back.

Tonight, I will say goodbye.

Goodbye to all the past days. I am suppose to be giving up all these long time ago. What's the point of holding on the the strings when I am the only one who will be suffering. I cant deny that they do contain most of my wonderful memories for me. And they will always do.

There's no point in holding on to things that I think it's important to me. EVERYTHING IN LIFE IS JUST A LIE. IT'S JUST FOR SHOW.

Do you know that it is the best time to murder me now that I am sick?
If you dont know, let me tell you that. It is the best time to kill me now. Especially that I am having a flu aka blocked nose.

How to murder me?
Just pour water into my nose while I am asleep will do. Slowly, I will not be breathing in oxygen and than it will seems as if I had died while I am asleep. =)

Dont ask me how I know about this method. Just know that I know about it.

Strangers that's our status.

Backstreet Boys -- Missing You

Oh baby, I'm missing you
We used to love so strong
Tell me where did we go wrong
Oh baby, I'm missing you
They say I'll learn to forget
But it sure ain't happened yet

Been checkin' all the places where we used to go (used to go)
Been lookin' for your face inside the crowd
I've been talkin' to the people that we used to know
But nobody wants to say
Where you hang out
And when I call your phone
Seems like your never, ever home
And you don't return my calls (return my calls)
It tears me up (tears me up)
It's breakin' up my heart (it's breakin' up my heart)

Oh baby, I'm missing you
We used to love so strong
Tell me where did we go wrong
Oh baby, I'm missing you
They say I'll learn to forget
But it sure ain't happened yet
But it sure ain't happened yet

I still have your pictures hung around my room (around my room)
They're the only thing that's left of you and me
Girl what can I do to make you come back soon
And make it just the way it used to be
Oh, is there someone new
Could never go on without you
Girl I don't wanna think about it (think about it)
I can't sleep at night
No this can't be right
Come back into my life (come back, baby come back)

I'm missing you
We used to love so strong
Tell me where did we go wrong
Oh baby, I'm missing you
They say I'll learn to forget
But it sure ain't happened yet

I know there's a chance for you and I
And I believe there's no way our love could die
So no matter how long it takes, I'll wait for you
And whatever it takes I'll be there for you
I'll be there, I'll be there
I'll be there, I'll be there

I'm missing you
We used to love so strong
Tell me where did we go wrong
Oh baby, I'm missing you
They say I'll learn to forget
But it sure ain't happened yet

Oh baby, I'm missing you
We used to love so strong
Tell me where dod we go wrong
Oh baby, I'm missing you
They say I'll learn to forget
But it sure ain't happened yet.

Sure ain't happened yet

Sure aint happened yet.